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I’ve been slipping through the years My old clothes don’t fit like they once did So they hang like ghosts Of the people I’ve been It’s like my heart can’t take My falling in love every day And I feel like a fool -DCFC There’s wonder in opening a new album, discovering new lyrics. You …

I woke up this morning with a hangover, of sorts. I’m not even sure why because hot tea and chicken tenders just don’t do that to bodies… I looked in the mirror.. (Ohmygod.) So I looked in the mirror and let out a bit of a self-pity gasp.. I have enormous bags under my eyes, …

This bridge was written to make you feel smittener with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer… If you’re familiar with the old journal, this quote has popped up more than once, and ironically… as luck sometimes has it, someone goes out the door, and someone comes in. First off- I’m going to say, I’m …

I was waiting for a cross-town train in the London Underground when it struck me that I’d been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie so I changed my plans, I rented a camera and a van and then I called you I need you to pretend …

I bet your fortressed face Belied your fort of lace It is by the grace of me You never learned what I could see   -Fiona Apple

The new Counting Crows album, (Saturday nights and Sunday Mornings,) is so much darker than anyone has given it credit for. It’s a rush of suicidal depression, mixed with the self-realizations of having to wake up with yourself the next morning anyway, and questioning sleeping at all. Adam is the master of speaking about internal …

This, is Sally Kern. She’s a legislator from Oklahoma. This, is what Sally said: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFxk7glmMbo   Capitol Address: 2300 N. Lincoln Blvd. Room 332 Oklahoma City, OK 73105 (405) 557-7348 District Address: 2713 Sterling Ave. Oklahoma City, OK 73127 Email: sallykern@okhouse.gov Here was my letter to Sally:  Sally,  You speak a great deal in your recent …

I have a theory, and it goes like this: If you’ve been hurt before- no matter the situation, if you’re intelligent and somewhat self-aware, you’ll probably think twice before walking straight into the same situation. (Because, that’s what normal people do. ) I’m not exactly normal, nor do I even pretend to be, and as …

This is how it works It feels a little worse Than when we drove our hearse Right through that screaming crowd While laughing up a storm Until we were just bone Until it got so warm That none of us could sleep And all the styrofoam Began to melt away We tried to find some …

All I know Is everything is not as it’s sold but the more I grow the less I know And I have lived so many lives Though I’m not old And the more I see, the less I grow The fewer the seeds the more I sow Then I see you standing there Wanting more …

Feb. 18th, 2008 Playlist of the Moment: February ’08 A friend recently asked me to throw up my playlist of the moment. (I started telling her what was on my ipod and I heard the sound of shock… and gagging.) Nevertheless? Great Idea. This- Is my playlist of the moment: (Now you too, can gag and …

Feb. 26th, 2008 Help. I’ve fallen and I can’t get up. (Or- my adventures in a tutu.) Well it’s all so overrated In not saying how you feel So you end up watching chances fade And wondering what’s real… -M.Branch Dating, is really? Just walking the not-quite steady tightrope of life. It’s putting on those …

She got a lot of pretty, pretty boys, that she calls friends How they dance in the courtyard, sweet summer sweat. Some dance to remember, some dance to forget -Hotel California I am a product of absolute regret- this thing that is slowly eating away at the outside of my flesh and being- the things …

These few lines I’ll devote To a marvelous girl covered up with my coat Pull it up to your chin I’ll hold you until the day will begin Still Lying in the shadows this new flame will cast Upon everything we carry from the past You were made of every love and each regret Up …

It’s been one of those weeks. (You know it’s one of those weeks when I’m on here at 3:21 am,) and I promise you- this probably isn’t going to make any coherent sense. (We’ll pretend it does.) Do me a favor and see if I’m right– the later it gets? The more ( ) ‘s …

Im going to start goal-ling. (I know.) -Who is this person and whiatthefuiak has she done with Kate- right? … I’m doing it anyway. This week’s goal: Quit the second job. Complications: My emotionally needy boss, (who cries when I explain that yes- I do have to leave work early today, and yes… I will …

There are days like this, when you hang your head on your desk and think for a moment about walking out- down the stairs and flicking everything that everyone thinks you are… off. I have big dreams- dreams that exceed farther than my job description. I have to continuously remind myself… this is the bottom …

…And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom… -Anais Nin What does it mean- to become? Do we drop everything that we are, that coincidentally we’re working for- everything on the ground to pick up something else? That’s how I’ve often seen this- becoming. It …

But I look at you, warm in your dream While your mobile dances above And I think to myself It’s a beautiful night And I know everything Is gonna be alright Yes now I know It’ll be alright -Joshua Radin Firstly– I’m alright. (Better than alright, even.) I feel like 100lbs was just lifted from …

Tomorrow Boys and Girls… is surgery. (I’m going to try and contain my excitement.) They will cut me and laser me and expect me to be thankful for it. (I’ll show them.) It’s been a weird day. I’m going to say something morbid and we’re going to pretend you aren’t going to think too much of it… …