Monthly Archives: December 2008

Fourteen

It was on that road and at that hour that I first became aware of my own self, experienced an inexpressible state of grace, and felt one with the first breath of air that stirred, the first bird, and the sun so newly born that it still looked not quite round.—Colette   Choices. Sometimes, it’s…

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Phantom Limb Syndrome…

A phantom limb is the sensation that an amputated or missing limb (even an organ, like the appendix) is still attached to the body and is moving appropriately with other body parts. Phantom sensations may also occur after the removal of body parts other than the limbs, e.g. after amputation of the breast, extraction of…

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Merry Christfestivus.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09CbvAiPdOw It’s the holidays, isn’t it? We ended up with a total count of 11 families.. (which I found astounding in itself, I’m pretty damn proud.) When all the gifts were given, and one huge lcd tv received, I sat…in my apartment, pantsless, on my bed and finally breathed. I sat in church today, with…

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Last thoughts.

Mindy:  “You don’t need the bandaid anymore?” Me. “No.” Mindy: “Good.” As I pulled the bandaid off my hand, I looked at the cut. It was open, and almost a perfect circle of pulled skin; exposed and bare. It’s going to hurt more like this- but it’s sure going to heal faster. I don’t need…

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Sex and the City… Or What I Quoted.

Tonight’s conversation while watching Sex and the City: Me: He’s going to dump her isn’t he?” Mindy: Yes. Me: Good. This will be theraputic. Thank god. Will he run her over with a truck too? That’s always helpful. Wait… are they going to break up too? They’re arguing about foam on her lip. This is…

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It’s a week until Christmas- but you have to hear this story:   You know sometimes, when you go into something new- you set the bar for yourself higher than you think you can reach. You imagine- hope intact, that this will become everything you want it to be. Very, very few times are you…

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It’s a slow dive down a fast distraction,  a strange fall foward, a chain reaction You’re not too tired for this life. It’s not gonna matter if you fall down twice.  -Lisa Loeb   To the nameless who’ve been here with me, stayed up- sent witty texts and never said, “if I hear about that…

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untitled.

It’s a familiar tug in my stomach. I woke and thought, (after someone left at 4am after much talking,)there is absolutely, no, freaking way I’m going to not feel like shit this morning. I went through my mental checklist- I was obviously still holding onto something. It probably was a deadly concotion of whatever I…

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An altar for lies…

This is it. The time of a deep breath-  a somewhat content sigh. I was right, (all along.) I bask in it. I re-think these words over and over, and somehow- instead of finding tears of solitude, or resentment- I find tears of hope. I searched so long outside myself, and waited for him to…

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Stand up and walk out of your history…

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us…

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